story f my life.....currently

SORRY ,to b postin so late..:(


as my system broke down,so just correctin my systems defaults:-o


so.here's my current life going__


college is going ok..
i'm studying now ...as my semesters r near..

one incident that broken me in these days was..

i had a very nice talkative nd close net friend named MAHEK..


but as i am back on net after so many days...now even if i rply on her account...she's does not respond.....


i 'm so anxious about this thing....as if i guess i have my crush on this girl...


don't know, how to tell her this.!!


but i really do


i attempted  to ask to her  ,the cell no.,nd given mine...but their also, nothin happenend:(


story f my life is made like this,,every one tend to leave me in between..
i don know why this happens..,but that's really bad f my destiny.

GOD...PLZ ..MERCY...

thanks...

feelin so dumped inside now.......

u know......

yesterady.a company that's
"indian army" came in our college for recruitement f engineerin students...

we were so happy nd going for ,the recruitement ...but as day passed..
they anounced that..they'll b taking only final year students selection...

we were so frutated,nd depressed,at that time..as we nearly wasted 2 f our days...in attestin nd signin all the possible formalities to fill in the recruitment letter f the company..nd this take f company...was just annoyin us greatly.....:x

2nd matter f why i'm so cult today...

is..there's a net friend f mine.......
we met 3 months before,on net.....nd 
i think from pat 3 to 4 days...she's just ignorin me to chat......i don know why....actually!!

nd...itz also the reason ,that i' just runnin around here nd their..as my father's health is low..so 
all the responsibilities nd work r now done by me.....so can't get time for doing ny other stuff..:x

hehhe...just chekin my counter............

first time ...the proposal!!!

now...today ...at orkut...

when we were just playin..TRUTH AND DARE....

some one asked me to propose a girl..at that moment..and i did that..
but guess what happened next........:o

she told me to stop it as she was gettin engaged tomarrow.....

i mean ...my f****  destiny...is so bad that...first time .i proposed a gir that 's goin to b engaged tomarrow...


it felt realy bad inside me..but at ame time felt good about the destiny nd new life that's being starting tomarrow of that girl i proposed online....




wierd nd bit strange ...though...but i'm good now......god teaches lesson every time i 'm goin to do some thing good for my self....:(


maua mila de mere pyaar se mila.............maula

a girl..........

now as i wrote in my previous post that ....a strange girl watchin me ....and all that.......
so now the condition is that i'hhv been trying to meet or talk to him...but i guess the luck is not with me now a days......as when i tryied to go near to her....she flashes out ...i don no where....som times  it rains ,and that's going on from couple f days now....

i guess i am not a perfect for handlin this situation....as i don't get enough support f ma mind to how to tackle this stuff!!

she comes to my dreams often now.....but i can't do anything......u know....true story.......!!

a girl...........:P:-o

u know ,a strange things happenin  to me,
a girl who's too awesomely beautyfull.....watches me out from 2 days.....
though i hav never talked to her.....but i wish to now...as she makes my heart goes...bumpy u know.....!!
that feeling arises suddenly nd then every thing happens, to b happening good, that surrounds me.
uffff  ......i don know ,if she's flirtin,or i 'm just a time pass to her but ya...one thing is for sure....their's been something...
as yesterday when i clicked out her photowhile she was with her friends,'she knew that i was doin that...but still she kept on standin their till i took my cell in my pocket...i mean a girl never does that so aften.....but i don no....
i'm too confused about this thing...man.....the hearty feelings make u addict to it.....hhhhhhhhh........

so...i guess in couple f days i'm goona talk to her any how.....lets see..what happens......
god help me please.......thanks

lonelyness...........

u know.....the things that play out major part n frustating me is loneliness......

no one to talk,to share,to play,to fight.....
i know that every one in this world in blessed with his own kind f luck or say vision.....but i feel totally empty,
when it comes to the relationships like bf/gf.....u know...
a boy who's totally out drinkin or flurtin with girls is the crush f most ,but who's just livin straight life gets a coconut out f tree.....:P


though their's exception but not with me....
now the friends mainly i talk to today r 5-6 girls out f which 2 r net friends(mehak,monica)
now in future..their 's no posibility f me to get a love married...u no.....(as my today's condition)
nd i hav a rule that i w'll not b marrying an strange girl...as it could ruin both f our lives.....so,
the result is ,i hav to wait for the next birth so as to have a companion.


though i hav faith in jesus as he could some day take  me to my beloved one,but their always a"?" in ma mind...


i was just frustated today so just wrote my mind here.......sry(don't mind)

FBI

just saw a movie called NEW YORK.........
nice movie with nice topic ,that's been touched by the story

is based on the terrorism and after effects of terrorism.....
i never thought that the FBI agency could humiliate nd torture people to so much intensity that a guy can never though out in his fuckin dreams and for reasons like....
being an outsider of USA,or being muslim or so...or belongin to south east asian countries like afghan nd pak...
though this stresses me out but ...i mean that insane man....
more then 3k people jailed only for these reason...
i'm thinkin now that what would happen to these people...they would never come back to there normal mind stats now...their whole life is dumped as they can never meet the another persons i nor can stand for their selves...:(

feel bad though....but i guess every one tries to b stable nd that's what all triyin to add to the world.....

guys..watch out this movie......:D

story of my life......

Please don’t tell me I’m beautiful,
cause ugly’s all I see.
Please don’t say I’m beautiful,
and lie to me.
Please don’t tell me I’m skinny,
cause I know I’m fat.
Please don’t tell me I’m pretty,
cause I know I’m far from that.
Don’t you say I’m perfect,
cause I’ll never be.
Don’t you say you care,
cause i know you hate me.
Please don’t tell me I worry you, just to put it in my face.
Please don’t tell me I’m good, when I know I’m a disgrace.
Don’t tell me I’m faithful, when I know I’m a fucking whore.
Don’t tell me you’ll never leave, cause I know you’re going to walk out that door.
Please don’t tell me we’re meant to be, cause for me there is no one.
And don’t you dare say you love me, cause I know it can’t be done

psychosocial

I'm just pissed f from the social online communities running all around (twitter,orkut,facebook,p.roach)
its just like talkin to all the persons in dreams that coms out instantly......man!!x-(

its just so rude that ,the person that we think is good suddenly comes out to b a strangely talkin havoc......
i mean that's a f*** crappy stuff man.......



i feel like going in old days having friends that can talk hours daily ...play chat,hang around.....

but i guess this's a new era and my middle finger to all those who make these crap sites...


sorry for being rude...its just i'm psychosocial today.......

hey..........hi,supp!!

hey.......this is rahul sharma

nationality:INDIA
am from lucknow but basically belongs to delhi side.....:D

am a upcoming ENGINEER from a reputed college in lucknow

my specification:
PERSUING B.TECH now...
branch is aeronautical/aerospace;
passed out my 12th in 2007 with 82.6% marks.....

my aim:
simplify problems in ma life,
money,love f my life that meets the eye....u know:P

my pleasure:
music,movies,romantic kinda posts or say someone's life's romantic incident.

more in my next post...till then tschuess...........