Give me a pint broddaaa nd lets forgot d world driving a JAG:)

hmmm....supp my never increasing purely illusional nd captivating fellows:P

last time..i told u awl about my wandering nd rambling days f searching jobs....probably i travelled a lot(fucking damn lot) f dis country which had to offer me nothing at d end f d day....:/:F

now some ppl called dat my bluffness ,some abused me ,some wished me luck, some hated me, some helped me.....saw a real piece f world ..when i entered to search my worth in market....

as i know..none f my friends would have had such exhausting nd deep search....i mean i met engineers,managers,hr,counsellor,GM,emlpoyee's nd also i discovered myself...:)

though i got nothing after all...but i discovered dat i can take dat toughness nd absorb the guilt in me..i can accept the defeats,made me more revenging but in a different manner....

sumbudy told me couple f days after ..when i was in AIR INDIA office bus , dat u should take every word dat abuses ur sole,every amger u have been through into u..nd god will lend u a day when u'll show them who u r....dat was a real advice for me.

.....i got to drive a real 6 SERIES BMW nd a JAGUAR (bluddy legenary)\m/ ..i felt so cliche nd top notch like at dat driving pleasure.....:D

wat else.....dese days ppl...mostly my college friends r really playing with my nerves.....wat d fuck they think f, SON F ASSHOLES ND BITCHES..:x

dis girl surabhi,utkrishti......i swear ....dese r on my hit lists...i will literally fuck them apart , ..
they think dat on ending d college ,they can abuse there cohorts nywhere they want to??
dese girls r really fuck heads i hav ever met.....testing my limits , they could hav said dose things when our college session was not over..nd i would have teared them apart...they would have been in a lame condition..

leave dose dickheads.......everyday i try to make sumthing new out f my life....playing guitar,thinking(dats a lot) ,texting,surfing online.....

dats it for the day man....see ya gimps later....till then   DRINK BEER   FUCK FEAR  \m/;)

worse time f life time

guys.....as u awl may not b aware of  :P  
but my college is over previous month.....nd tab se ab tak bahaut kuch ho gaya

first to 2 doston ne dikha diya k wo bas kahni ki dosti rakhe hue the awl 4 years, but its life nd v meet awl kind f crap nd fucking shit...:/

m still finding how cum i didnt recognize those fuckholes..:x

leave it...now m a graduate so i probably luk for a job to earn my livelyhud

so i went to delhi.....rambling nd wandering alone in aviation offices,airport,authorities,consultancy......but guess to kar liya hoga.........bilkul sai..!!:P

nothing happened.....:(
i walked for about 12km a day every day for like 15 days.....for just sublitting my resume to fucking retarded amature nd far less illiterate reception guys, who had a attitude like prince williams..:x:O

and while walking alone, i saw d ppl in super cool cars with super hot babes, i watched huge malls with pretty crowd but my final destination were offices which made me smilem everytime i reach there gates.....dat made me smile ..though i just went there to submit my resume's but still it was a joy moment for me....

but its ok,every thing happens for a gud reason......i hope so...

baki....maine guitar ka g learn kar liya hai..baja leta hun...atleast..:):D

last drops f fucking legendary life:D

hey peeps


so now ...as my student life i.e LEGEN wait for it................................DARY ,life is over 


the moments i feel now r more sucked up nd fully weird


now no more dat night outs, no more drink sessions, no more roaming, babe watching,freedom...:/

AYE KHUDA.......GIR GAYA.......MAIN JO TUJSE DUR HUA..lut gaya...:(


i still remember dat first day, dat first crush,dat first test i wrote,the first lecture i did.....i mean life at dat moment was just awesome, awl time big surprises ,sleepness nights, hours f talks,new buddies,brodas,chicks


but suddenly now it seems awl blackened up....as if for me ..i still notice myself in mirror nd think dat
M I DAT BIG TO B A GRADUATE!!!


i mean ..its weird when i say i passed college but internally i feel just like a kid....


my room is still surrounded with buks,grafitti wall,games,experiment setups:P:)


i still hav addiction to awl the things dat a teenager hav .....i still enjoy new porno,still like to live life king size.
DONT FUCKIN CARE WAT BITCHES THINK ABOUT ME


cuz i feel i cant b without my buddies......but life is changing...time is changing,seasons r changing


i will miss those lectures ,mostly the bunking part, walling in sessionals, staring girls in sems. sitting beside me..:):P
i dont wanna live dat KUTTI life.....working for hours like a whore for some million bugs...:/


i guess dats why my cell went into comma.....friends gaye,beloved phone gaya....ab age pata ni kya hoga bhendi......


i just feel like exploding on sumone.....just frustating my self aftr thinking f life without my cohorts...:(



wat else..


saw movie PYAAR KA PUNCHnama... awesome movie....u can watch it ,if u wanna see the conditions f guys who leave dere awesome bachelor life for sum slutty minded girls...DUMB ARSES really.....

jis time main movie dekh ra tha ..i swear ..agar koi gf hoti meri..nd mujhse kuch bhi muchodi karti ....to pakka ek rakh deta uske........the movie had no actual drama like item songs nd awl but just reality f life..with awl fresher casting..:D\m/




nd   college over hone k gum main kal 4K bugs ki shopping kar dali bc.....wo bhi 20mins main..


jab dimaag ki lagi ho , nd apko koi maal shop pe stuffs dikha ri ho...to u tend to just buy it luking at her fake smile....:/

baki sab bhi aise hi chal ra hai....vehlle ho chuke hain...,yaaawwnnnz.......going to sleep again....tada


hav a blast ...if u can....plz b safe

of those who say nothing, few are silent.

hey awl roachers nd acoustic lovers..:D

these days my mommy's both sis i.e mausi r at our home...

so we awl r kindachatter box these days with awl the old albums nd different kinda f food discovered at home...as 1 mausi gujarat main rahti hain nd second one lives n other state so its kinda fun trying nd speaking awl kinda foods,languages nd the way they speak....there traditions nd awl...rapchik raat bhar baaten hoti hain...:D

but as usual my sems r coming near day by day so dat tension in my mind is drenching the fun..:/:(

wat else....ummm....u people remember , i referred to a girl  (ayesha) who is fun to talk to nd behemoth frank..

so yesterday , she told me dat i have a dual personality ..nd i was laughing literally by hearing dat 

i mean....how much does she know me, v hav almost talked to each other only 1hr or so...nd she says awl dat stuff..lolz

its strange nd weird  listening these things frm a very practical nd frank girl i thought she is(i supposed)

u know...these instant cell talks,fb make people believe dat wat they r seeing on the profile  is awl about the profile owner ...cuz its just a virtual world...i in my opinion i would never make an image f any person in serious without meeting him/her face to face..u know....

so dat was real funny f her

wat else....aj fafda jalebi khane ka try kiya....love to try new stuff...

baki awl is well.....STILL NO SIGNS OF FAREWELL....bluddy juno's :((:X

well dis day ...i'll dedicate a song to awl those people who need big HUGS like i do..:)

take care ppl:) nd enjoyh each love moment f u'r life;):)

I remember the view ,when i'm holding u:)...HELP NEEDED!!

hey people....nd awl my 3 followers :P:)

as u awl no...m going on with a tough schedule ...

u know....i want to do so many things ...awl stuff...by this i mean awl kinda stuff....

i follow nd take out bit f time for my passion nd hobbies.....i workout,run,sing,play guitar rather fantasizr my imagination, i solve lots f maths 

i look for so many facts nd figures nd interesting thngs dat make my mind say *really!!*

u know folks.....today one f my friend desperatly asked me dat *why dont u go to temple nd why r u so athiestic*

so in return i answered him ..dat why should i believe in someone who's invisible nd just dont care about half the world dat dont even have dat 3 needy things to survive...:/

i mean..why should i spend my money on gods serving etc....

i rather go nd spend my money on those poor kids who dont even get 1 time satisfactory food, who lie down nywhere to sleep nd have no signs f any medications nd hospitality provided...

i just fade my yes..

u know..i watched a glimpse of the ROYAL WEDDING today.....nd tears filled my eyes when i thought f dat poor kids who dont even no...wats R in ROYAL...:(

i know..m talking awl serious..but its me..I LOVE TO DONATE MY MONEY,STUFF TO POOR CHILDREN....i walk 3 miles on foot cuz i give my expenses to them ....cuz they need dat moey more then me...:)

its ok..dat they even dont no wat,who,why,when....about me...but it makes my heart sooth nd relax..

a smile comes to me after doing such work..:)

baki sab is gud...nini ari hai zor se.....nd kal  fir se whole day work:)

so i'll better leave....i u people think..dat i m .1% right about dat money spending thing....so please help those poor chaps...they need u'r help...SERIOUSLY GUYS...

c u guys...have a safe life:):D

tiny talk with a awesome bot:)

hey awl text addicts nd behemoth bizzare people..\m/:D

k..now from couple of days my schedule is going hard nd busy cuz f my habit of experience nd learn ..wat dis world nd people hav got for me..

u know...i definiately try nd take out my time for my hobbies nd interests nd passions apart from college nd study time...

my fingers r sore today cuz f too much strings play on guitar..:)

but u know...its worth it...the more u play it, the more u tend to enjoyh nd explore nd learn about it

but actually...i dont have any mentor or sum one to teach....i just search out for lyrics nd tunes  on net

taken a book called *how to play a guitar by don morgan nd nick penny* nd m ON it  8-)

u know....wat i feel...i think dat ITS  BETTER TO BE A PUPIL OF AN ART AT 90 THAN A MASTER AT 14..:)

cuz its so much fun exploring awl that stuff by u'r self nd teach u'rself which is ulti. feeling

baki u know...aj un unknown girl(AYESHA) ne fir se call ki..nd about half an hour she didnt told me her identity ..

fir maine apni call log dekh k pata kiya..nai to mere ko lag ra tha k...koi mere saath mazak kar ra hai....

but seriously dude....i never talked to a girl like dat...i mean she's so damn frank...i was just sighed half a time she spoke to me..

u know...awl short f talks .....nd besides me ..1 f my friend was surfing net....nd he was enjoying or chat so curously nd even i was enjoying the whole convo...:O:D

finally koi aisi ladki mili who's

20% ANGEL AND 80% DEVIL.....\m/:D

my perfect date..u know.......but i guess...i should not b so concerned about sum one cuz it was just a normal talk nd awl....

nd u know...her cute voice is just contrary to her flirt nature.....

nd dis was d beginning...uske bad mere friend ko pata nai kya sujhi k he started teasing me for i don no wat...

besides dis...awl is going oki....bas fingers thode sore hain..but i'll cope with them...:)

adios nd tschuess

at last dis dedication to u awl..enjoyh:)

SOME DAY....i'll have awl u'r answers buddy:D:)

hi budddieesss.....real buddiess!~!:D

u know, aj meri ek dost se baat ho ri thi(sandeep)...as uski nai girlfriend bani hai so he's really excited nd asking me to advice him som f the cheap cell plans

but as u awl know....its not my piece f cake....main to bas RS20 main hi pura month chala leta hun nd besides bacha bhi leta hun:D:P

so he was suggesting me k..i should also probably find sum one..

so i as just generally asked him *why should i do so when i have so many friends to talk to*

so in return his answer was  ,*if i had to talk romantic with someone then where should i go*

uummmmm  i had literally no answer to his query but i m still thinking...wat should b a gud answer to dis question

so wat should i do know, when most f my friends r commited nd give there night moments to there special one's when , people like me who r ther friends feel empty or want a companians just like previous days f friendship life

u know....i feel as v grow up...this life goes to b tougher nd friends loosen out nd just shades f them only appears vivid to us..:)

so again...i  have to take name f dis buddy f mine (ayesha)..i mean ,d moment i post somthing on group chat...

she wishes me hi nd awl dat nd it feels speacial nd gud:)

though its just a matter f treating people......i also tend to dedicate her sum or the other stuffs:D

wat else......just life is going smooth.....padne ki soch ra hun ..project bhi banana hai nd awl tension in mind:/

baki sab ok....kuch der sochta hun,kuch log puchte hain k what happened to u'r incident 

ab kya bolun....bas bol deta hun k i left dat stuff....nd seriously i dont no wat to say or react to dat question...

but sum day i will have awl the answers to ther queries...SOMEDAY:)

JBL\m/

suppppp awl story makers:D

u know...aj my  car got a new addition to her, dats JBL speakers...bloody freaking awesome sound with twitters:D:)

mast puri family ko outing karai...:)

sare gam ,sara pyaar ka bhoot utar aya......ahhhhhhhhhhh.....yaar...:)

so as yesterday.....maine ayesha ko apna blog dedicate kiya nd galti se use bata diya:P

i hope she didnt felt bad or sumthing aftr reading my stuff :/:|

well hope for gud, dats wat i'm doing my whole life nd selecting awl wrong deeds..like aero:P

wat else....ummmmm.........aj semester ki dates a gayin....so know....studies will b ON but 3-4 din main dono mausi a ri hain so luking forward to enjoyh with a bang:) also my JBL's will b supporting me:D

adios awl\m/ stay safe nd b pure:)

sailors-delight:)

hey fellas:)

m back nd dis time no emptiness is prevailing in me,i have accepted nd started to follow wat life has planned for me ahead

cuz its not worth to cry on past:/

so...here is 1 incident dat happened to me,dat made me think so positive

it was monday when i was back from gym nd just going to have my supper

a unknown girl called me nd in a cute voice asked if 'i recognised him'

but i didnt ..then she told me about the last night sharing f my no. to her....

well she was AYESHA'.....very humble,frank,humourous,talkative nd lively:D

i met her on fb in sum community chat .....

but our first meeting more f went as a fight ....nd i had general notion about her dat she's biased or sum thing

but aftr then i really came to know dat she was a fun loving girl who can tease u to ny extent;):D

i mean...u know...i always m attracted towards girls who do things king size nd r not at awl apologies for stuffs

she openly told me dat she smokes,does every thing dat boy can do.....u know..boozing,slangs,betting  nd awl

nd it was so much fun talking to a girl who finally is not like orthodoxic nd sweet like whole surrounding me:D:)

wat else..i'm listening to more chilled nd hiphop nd also planning my revenge to those bro-sis freaky retarded stuff  :x :)

trying hard to let it go

so people...m back with still some pain in my heart ,but i'm doing good dis time

friends like dhruv,shakaib,mona,harsh,smriti encourage nd motivated me about the life

but for me...i still hope dat she would understand sumday ,wat she lost...

u know people..

i m trying hard to let her go

i try to get busy

read different novels which i hate to study

pick the most heavy weight in gym trying to hold them while thinkin dat this should decay her memory frm me

i sumtimes cry.,sum times stare at her pics too long nd watch her smile nd innocent eyes.

nd most lame part is i started dreaming from past 2 days..i mean i was so sad with no dreams coming while i sleep but suddenly she's awl over in my dreams playing,sitting besides me,teasing me,watching me play football from her house terace

i mean its  so aweful nd lame to dream about person u want to forget nd then suddenly u dream about her every time close my eyes...:/

koi aisa dost bhi nai hai jisse ye sab share kar sakun,so i did write blog to share my freeakiness nd weird 

some times i tend to b extensive abusing guy, but sum times i stay calm nd listen to awl but cant react

dis life is so beautiful dat made me experince awl dat a mature guy can :)

jindagi khubsurat hai.......par aur khubsurat hoti uske saath:)

she was the girl who happened to b in my life for so long,usse maine kitna kuch share kiya tha,jitna aj tak to kisi se nai kiya....

but i guess i'll cope with it,time will make me do it...

Main laut auoonga

u know people,wat happened today:(

it was when i was parking my car in my house nd swati nd her mom was just having a night walk

so when i parked my car,her mom commented dat "u should drive our car too,atleast dat is atleast u can do for u'r sister swati"
nd i was soo shocked nd broken inside but i smiled in front f her mom just to hide my emotions..

i mean why people consider a boy nd girl f same age always as bro nd sis:((

fucked me literally by saying dat...

listening to awl time big sore tracks

bleeding inside ,i mean i cant say nothin man!!:(

she s through nd my 7 yrs 1 sided love is awl over   ,kal to pakka booze marunga,ab to life over hi hai half

jo 3 wishes mangi thin usmain se ek to god ne aj dikha di puri karke nd meri aukaat bhi dikh gai:(

shayad isi liye i  dont deserve ny thing else then awl my 3 wishes in waste:)

koi baat nai,ab se love nai karunga kabhi,shaadi ,love sab bakwas.....no true love exist in dis life:)

aj k baad koi expectation nai rakhunga life se....but kahin na kahin abhi bhi HOPE hai k swati jarur consider karegi,but i know my status nd my fucking destiny has brought me nothing out f my life:)

*aj kyun ankh bhar ayi,aj kyun teri yaad ayi:)*

BHOOOT AAYYYAAAAAAAAAAA\\m//

u know people...:D

something amazing happened with me....i scored maximum marks in 1 f the toughest subjects f this semester
its an awesome feeling when awl class studious students congrats me for scoreing so well....though i was not a given internals dat gud but i made it through external marks:D:)

wat else ....i'
m liking the song called BHOOT AYA...\m/:P

still no gf nd job but ..i'm optimistic:)

i don't regret dis life..i chose for me....:)

nd yea...yesterday....watched an awesome match f india vs pakistan.....great spirit between 2 countries:D

c ya lator folks....tata:D

A BAD MOMENT

it feels so sore to write this...:(

my grandmother died at 9:35 pm today:((((

feeling so broken nd cold inside cuz she was a most respected elder nd mostly she was so kind hearted to us

she always greated me,when i went to touch her feet everytime...she used to bring smiles to awl f our faces when the whole family used to b together

its a hurting moment for the family..nd particularly i know wat  my papa is feeling right know.

m just leaving for delhi right know ,as we have to reach the hospital ASAP...:((

dadi, i'm truely sorry nd apologize if i ever made u cry or done wrong....plz forgive me..


crying in vain nd sorrow...:((

emptiness

Today while surfing i found a amazingly sylph song by rohan rathore

i have crush on this song frm the moment i listened to it,nd moreover the lyrics nd the video is fantastaic:)

atleast is time main,kuch to aisa mila jisse dil ko khushi mili:)
well i thought why don't share it with u guys...

enjoyh:)

Ho love of mine..

with a song and a whine..

You’re harsh and divine..

like truths and a lie..

but the tale end is not here..

I’ve nothing to fear..

for my love is yell of giving and hold on…

in the bright emptiness..

in a room full of it..

is the cruel mistress ho ho o…

I feel the sunrise..

that nest all hollowness..

for i have the way to go.. not come…

And i feel so lonely yea..

There’s a better place from this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yea..

There’s a better please from this emptiness

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…

Tune mere jaana..

Kabhi nahi jana..

Ishq mera dard mera …

Aashiq teraaa..

Bheed mein khoya rehta hai..

Jaane jahaan a..

Puchho toh itna kehta hai..

And i feel so lonely yea..

There’s a better place from  this emptiness..

And i’m so lonely yea..

There’s a better please from this emptiness:)

agar acha laga to plz do comment..(though i don't no one does):P

                                                                                                                                            

some words with my blog:)

hey fellasss!!

aaj ek bande ki love story ne emotional kar diya mere ko..:/

but i salute him for having a huge heart to overcome that kind of mishappening with her friend

btw...how r u awl,reply to nai dega koi,i know:P
 so ,life's going on with no anxietyness nd livelyhood ,just breathing in nd out :D
maine bataya tha,k aerospace waalon k liye last option tha TCS
par usne bhi 1st round k baad branch ko disqualify kar diya tha:(
so ab bas din raat koi aisa master plan sochta rahta hoon,jisse main bhi financially stable ho sakoon,cuz ab family se paise lena strange lagta hai....but aur koi option hai kya mere paas??

ek to saala koi aisa talent nai hai mere paas,k main bhi kuch ultimate kar saakon,ar field main to koi na koi GOD baitha hai

aaj system aisa hai k,bina us god k aap upar nai ja sakte...

aerospace field main jaane k liye bhi aise hi koi GOD ki jaroorat padni hai,nd wo freshers ko kahan dikhta hai..:|
fir bhi try karoonga k apne field k lliye kuch kar sakoon,atleast ye hi umeed ki thi jab ye branch join ki thi maine,par as always destiny ne kutta bana diya:D
fir bhi ek cheez hai mere paas,HOPE...bas ye hi leke chaloonga

bas ek hi request hai,meri hope ka answer mile jaldi,nai to kahin main ye ek cheez bhi na chodh doon...I HOPE

see u guys...

TCS DAY

HEY FELLLASS!!!

as u awl probably must b knowing that how sick i'm frm my life

so,now when the sems. r over and i got my stolen PHONE back from DELhi

it was know time for recruitment of TCS dat came in our college for placement purpose

we awl were too optimistic about this program ,as this was the only chace for the AERONAUTICAL students to get placed in any firm ,but as u awl must b knwing dat TCS is a software company,hence there were almost all students from IT  nd CS branch nd seeing that site f happiness in those students made us bit dissapointed
as the cs ,it branch had much less cutoff then us,so mainly we were just a side branch who was just there for the sake f giving written test ,only 1 f my branch mate got passed in written exam,that's also cuz he was probably knowing awl the answers to the question dat was in quetionare as there was only 1 set f questionnaire
so,dat was it,we got out of the auditorium after the list was out with fake smiles,but as much as i know,awl f us had tears in eyes but a HOPE is still there,atleast i got broken after the hectic day,disspointment by dat behaviour with our branch nd then scolding by my parents made my day more wonderful nd pleasurable

i'm just writting this ,so dat i atleast let awl my stuff out
so this was another story f a boy dat used to b a self contained ,satisfied nd lively but now its awl pretty empty nd cold in my sole.....
but as always HOPE makes me live another day:)

tata amigo's:)