I remember the view ,when i'm holding u:)...HELP NEEDED!!

hey people....nd awl my 3 followers :P:)

as u awl no...m going on with a tough schedule ...

u know....i want to do so many things ...awl stuff...by this i mean awl kinda stuff....

i follow nd take out bit f time for my passion nd hobbies.....i workout,run,sing,play guitar rather fantasizr my imagination, i solve lots f maths 

i look for so many facts nd figures nd interesting thngs dat make my mind say *really!!*

u know folks.....today one f my friend desperatly asked me dat *why dont u go to temple nd why r u so athiestic*

so in return i answered him ..dat why should i believe in someone who's invisible nd just dont care about half the world dat dont even have dat 3 needy things to survive...:/

i mean..why should i spend my money on gods serving etc....

i rather go nd spend my money on those poor kids who dont even get 1 time satisfactory food, who lie down nywhere to sleep nd have no signs f any medications nd hospitality provided...

i just fade my yes..

u know..i watched a glimpse of the ROYAL WEDDING today.....nd tears filled my eyes when i thought f dat poor kids who dont even no...wats R in ROYAL...:(

i know..m talking awl serious..but its me..I LOVE TO DONATE MY MONEY,STUFF TO POOR CHILDREN....i walk 3 miles on foot cuz i give my expenses to them ....cuz they need dat moey more then me...:)

its ok..dat they even dont no wat,who,why,when....about me...but it makes my heart sooth nd relax..

a smile comes to me after doing such work..:)

baki sab is gud...nini ari hai zor se.....nd kal  fir se whole day work:)

so i'll better leave....i u people think..dat i m .1% right about dat money spending thing....so please help those poor chaps...they need u'r help...SERIOUSLY GUYS...

c u guys...have a safe life:):D

tiny talk with a awesome bot:)

hey awl text addicts nd behemoth bizzare people..\m/:D

k..now from couple of days my schedule is going hard nd busy cuz f my habit of experience nd learn ..wat dis world nd people hav got for me..

u know...i definiately try nd take out my time for my hobbies nd interests nd passions apart from college nd study time...

my fingers r sore today cuz f too much strings play on guitar..:)

but u know...its worth it...the more u play it, the more u tend to enjoyh nd explore nd learn about it

but actually...i dont have any mentor or sum one to teach....i just search out for lyrics nd tunes  on net

taken a book called *how to play a guitar by don morgan nd nick penny* nd m ON it  8-)

u know....wat i feel...i think dat ITS  BETTER TO BE A PUPIL OF AN ART AT 90 THAN A MASTER AT 14..:)

cuz its so much fun exploring awl that stuff by u'r self nd teach u'rself which is ulti. feeling

baki u know...aj un unknown girl(AYESHA) ne fir se call ki..nd about half an hour she didnt told me her identity ..

fir maine apni call log dekh k pata kiya..nai to mere ko lag ra tha k...koi mere saath mazak kar ra hai....

but seriously dude....i never talked to a girl like dat...i mean she's so damn frank...i was just sighed half a time she spoke to me..

u know...awl short f talks .....nd besides me ..1 f my friend was surfing net....nd he was enjoying or chat so curously nd even i was enjoying the whole convo...:O:D

finally koi aisi ladki mili who's

20% ANGEL AND 80% DEVIL.....\m/:D

my perfect date..u know.......but i guess...i should not b so concerned about sum one cuz it was just a normal talk nd awl....

nd u know...her cute voice is just contrary to her flirt nature.....

nd dis was d beginning...uske bad mere friend ko pata nai kya sujhi k he started teasing me for i don no wat...

besides dis...awl is going oki....bas fingers thode sore hain..but i'll cope with them...:)

adios nd tschuess

at last dis dedication to u awl..enjoyh:)

SOME DAY....i'll have awl u'r answers buddy:D:)

hi budddieesss.....real buddiess!~!:D

u know, aj meri ek dost se baat ho ri thi(sandeep)...as uski nai girlfriend bani hai so he's really excited nd asking me to advice him som f the cheap cell plans

but as u awl know....its not my piece f cake....main to bas RS20 main hi pura month chala leta hun nd besides bacha bhi leta hun:D:P

so he was suggesting me k..i should also probably find sum one..

so i as just generally asked him *why should i do so when i have so many friends to talk to*

so in return his answer was  ,*if i had to talk romantic with someone then where should i go*

uummmmm  i had literally no answer to his query but i m still thinking...wat should b a gud answer to dis question

so wat should i do know, when most f my friends r commited nd give there night moments to there special one's when , people like me who r ther friends feel empty or want a companians just like previous days f friendship life

u know....i feel as v grow up...this life goes to b tougher nd friends loosen out nd just shades f them only appears vivid to us..:)

so again...i  have to take name f dis buddy f mine (ayesha)..i mean ,d moment i post somthing on group chat...

she wishes me hi nd awl dat nd it feels speacial nd gud:)

though its just a matter f treating people......i also tend to dedicate her sum or the other stuffs:D

wat else......just life is going smooth.....padne ki soch ra hun ..project bhi banana hai nd awl tension in mind:/

baki sab ok....kuch der sochta hun,kuch log puchte hain k what happened to u'r incident 

ab kya bolun....bas bol deta hun k i left dat stuff....nd seriously i dont no wat to say or react to dat question...

but sum day i will have awl the answers to ther queries...SOMEDAY:)

JBL\m/

suppppp awl story makers:D

u know...aj my  car got a new addition to her, dats JBL speakers...bloody freaking awesome sound with twitters:D:)

mast puri family ko outing karai...:)

sare gam ,sara pyaar ka bhoot utar aya......ahhhhhhhhhhh.....yaar...:)

so as yesterday.....maine ayesha ko apna blog dedicate kiya nd galti se use bata diya:P

i hope she didnt felt bad or sumthing aftr reading my stuff :/:|

well hope for gud, dats wat i'm doing my whole life nd selecting awl wrong deeds..like aero:P

wat else....ummmmm.........aj semester ki dates a gayin....so know....studies will b ON but 3-4 din main dono mausi a ri hain so luking forward to enjoyh with a bang:) also my JBL's will b supporting me:D

adios awl\m/ stay safe nd b pure:)

sailors-delight:)

hey fellas:)

m back nd dis time no emptiness is prevailing in me,i have accepted nd started to follow wat life has planned for me ahead

cuz its not worth to cry on past:/

so...here is 1 incident dat happened to me,dat made me think so positive

it was monday when i was back from gym nd just going to have my supper

a unknown girl called me nd in a cute voice asked if 'i recognised him'

but i didnt ..then she told me about the last night sharing f my no. to her....

well she was AYESHA'.....very humble,frank,humourous,talkative nd lively:D

i met her on fb in sum community chat .....

but our first meeting more f went as a fight ....nd i had general notion about her dat she's biased or sum thing

but aftr then i really came to know dat she was a fun loving girl who can tease u to ny extent;):D

i mean...u know...i always m attracted towards girls who do things king size nd r not at awl apologies for stuffs

she openly told me dat she smokes,does every thing dat boy can do.....u know..boozing,slangs,betting  nd awl

nd it was so much fun talking to a girl who finally is not like orthodoxic nd sweet like whole surrounding me:D:)

wat else..i'm listening to more chilled nd hiphop nd also planning my revenge to those bro-sis freaky retarded stuff  :x :)

trying hard to let it go

so people...m back with still some pain in my heart ,but i'm doing good dis time

friends like dhruv,shakaib,mona,harsh,smriti encourage nd motivated me about the life

but for me...i still hope dat she would understand sumday ,wat she lost...

u know people..

i m trying hard to let her go

i try to get busy

read different novels which i hate to study

pick the most heavy weight in gym trying to hold them while thinkin dat this should decay her memory frm me

i sumtimes cry.,sum times stare at her pics too long nd watch her smile nd innocent eyes.

nd most lame part is i started dreaming from past 2 days..i mean i was so sad with no dreams coming while i sleep but suddenly she's awl over in my dreams playing,sitting besides me,teasing me,watching me play football from her house terace

i mean its  so aweful nd lame to dream about person u want to forget nd then suddenly u dream about her every time close my eyes...:/

koi aisa dost bhi nai hai jisse ye sab share kar sakun,so i did write blog to share my freeakiness nd weird 

some times i tend to b extensive abusing guy, but sum times i stay calm nd listen to awl but cant react

dis life is so beautiful dat made me experince awl dat a mature guy can :)

jindagi khubsurat hai.......par aur khubsurat hoti uske saath:)

she was the girl who happened to b in my life for so long,usse maine kitna kuch share kiya tha,jitna aj tak to kisi se nai kiya....

but i guess i'll cope with it,time will make me do it...

Main laut auoonga

u know people,wat happened today:(

it was when i was parking my car in my house nd swati nd her mom was just having a night walk

so when i parked my car,her mom commented dat "u should drive our car too,atleast dat is atleast u can do for u'r sister swati"
nd i was soo shocked nd broken inside but i smiled in front f her mom just to hide my emotions..

i mean why people consider a boy nd girl f same age always as bro nd sis:((

fucked me literally by saying dat...

listening to awl time big sore tracks

bleeding inside ,i mean i cant say nothin man!!:(

she s through nd my 7 yrs 1 sided love is awl over   ,kal to pakka booze marunga,ab to life over hi hai half

jo 3 wishes mangi thin usmain se ek to god ne aj dikha di puri karke nd meri aukaat bhi dikh gai:(

shayad isi liye i  dont deserve ny thing else then awl my 3 wishes in waste:)

koi baat nai,ab se love nai karunga kabhi,shaadi ,love sab bakwas.....no true love exist in dis life:)

aj k baad koi expectation nai rakhunga life se....but kahin na kahin abhi bhi HOPE hai k swati jarur consider karegi,but i know my status nd my fucking destiny has brought me nothing out f my life:)

*aj kyun ankh bhar ayi,aj kyun teri yaad ayi:)*