IT WAS YOU

{

It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

I was sick of all the pain
Tired of all the shame that I felt
But you showed me a way
To never have a doubt
And always to believe in myself

So how can I make this up to you
I'll fight and I'll push and I'll strive
Now that I'm living my life for you
I'll fight and I'll push and I'll strive
Can't you see...?

It was you
That showed me who I am
And taught me how to stand
For what I know is real

Now I'm breathin for the first time
And I'm leavin, all this behind
I've become, what I am because of you }


DEDICATED TO MY HEART ND LOVE....

yesterday......when i again pinged her....cuz i can't resist

she asked me...
as...how am i?

but....the question was so solitudal,that i just said   "i'm awesome"

nd bwe..i don't know..what she thought about this sentence f mine....


nd she talked to me....

she asked me...as if.....i'm like a friend or just those old feelings r flowing around me

nd i had nothin too answer about...i mean how can i!!

u know.....
she said ki,its not possible for her
she will b good with his arrange married husband

nd i thought

one day,she'll just wake up ,in morning

find her big ,fatty ,husband snorring(kharrate lete hue) ,coughing…
nd think that,what if atleast I have tried once..
what if everything…have been just fine
what if ,that love was meant to be with me
what if,my life today,had different meaning towards love

she told me..that..
she 's  not the miss. perfect for me...

but..mehak
i don't want any perfection ...as perfectness make u'r life least anxious nd more solitudal

i just want to b ,a noob...:)


{

If you reach deep inside you'll see my heart is true

Cuz I hate the way…I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice         }


u know....

i don't know ..why i write so much about her.....when she just refused me at first go...:-/
i don know..why i sit from 9:00pm nd wait for her so anxiously....
i don know...why she is so sweet....!!
don know....why she comes in my dreams...
don know...why she talks to me....whole day...

don know..why i just roam around searchin for her,like a bot


yesterday,she talked me about...her religion,foods,nd much more....

she was just countin our factors nd unlikeness...
i guess,she was doin analysis on me

but...maine to itna kabhi socha hi nai,actually mere to kabhi ye sab dimaag main nai aya..

i guess...tabhi main love kar baitha......kambhakht love..:(

i just feel u,inside me completely shadowed ....

yesterday....i got a dream about her

in which...she calls me ,in a cafe.....

i just waited for her for more then couple f hours

nd then she appears with his BF

nd seeyin this...i just smile...as i can't do nothin about this...:-/

next thing she says to me..is...

hey rahul...how r u feeling today!!!


nd i say......

".just like...when a man's dream come true.....:)"
nd i smile..nd leave

the waitor take a short laughin session with others.....

nd i just laugh at my self......bloody idiotic me.....

nd then....mob. alarm pops out.....
nd i wake up nd just think..about u
nd then..i say,i wish ,today ,i can forget her
nd then.....all my day,goes imagining...:-/


nd here is my fav. lines.on what i'm passin through

{TUMHE DEKHA,TUMHE CHAHA

TUMKO POOJA,DEKHA SUNA KUCH BHI NAI

ANSUON SE DOOBA KAAGAZ LIA,
USPE LIKHA KUCH BHI NAI,
RAAT BHAR JAAGA KIYA,

TUMSE KAHA ,KUCH BHI NAHI.....}...:(

ane the worse ,she suggested  me was....

i should burn..her photos...

i mean....why should i burn my love's pic.?

i don't understand....either way....

cuz.....thaat pic. will b like....so much precious to me.....
i can't even think f ..folding it.....burnin is like......impossible

k...so today's schedule was nothin like routine...

subah...at 7:00..i had to go to my tayi's house.....for some work
fir....papa k saath,thoda kaam karaya
fir ,labours k saath laga raha
fir...mere dost a gaye....as i havn't talked to them ..since last week

so they.were worried....

but i didn't share ny thing
as if this leaks out..

i will have tough ,time in college

as....u see..there r most friends who r close friends at u'r face but rival on back...:(

nd agar mehak hoti ,tabhi to unhe main batata kuch

wo to bas......my only one hai

ab main unhe ye bol doonga..

ki mera last love......24 hrs se bhi kam chala...

to ,that will make my wound more deeper..

as every time..if i'll try to just forget her

log...mujhe yaad dila hi denge...:(

mera ek pakka dost kal, a raha hai,pune se

so..kal shayad usse share kar loonga....apna last love


fir.......jab dost chale gaye....

main kal ki tarah.....fir bhatakti aatma ban k road pe nikal gaya

ki shayad....use thoda to bhool hi jaoonga

but...this isn't going...


u know..
i just keep quiet whole day.....
i don't know why..

koi khushi,koi gum.....mahsoos hi nai ho raha........:(

aaj ,fir se apna model start karte hue...
doosri ungli kaat li
fir uspe bandage chadaya........

now..my two most important fingures...r injured..but ..not in great sense...
it usually happens....as the propeller has blades..that r too sharp

nd ,we have to start ,model 's engine..by jerking the propeller quickly.
nd that....injures most f us...

just now..i'm waitin for her..to b online.....

even ,if she does not....talk to me
i would b happy ,to see her yellow blink..:)


hey....

        

                                                                               P.S  I LOVE YOU...:)