straight through my heart

:)

sorry....i was too busy yesterday nd my condition was pretty week....nd my mom's too

cuz f the smoke...that's generated from construction work..

it was a minor headache.....

so....yesterday..

when after that drunk session ,i met with my gang

they all just pranked on me....

its just a freaky fun .....all around me...on me

but...we quite had a enjoyable moments together...as only twice a yr...we meet...


they just told me,what nd how ,i was behavin on after drinkin....

they asked me....that ....have i proposed to mehak or not

nd....then....i just ...remained quite nd they automatically understood ,what was her answer on this

but...as day before yesterday......she didn't came online.

so i just slept on my chair..nd felt down twice waitin for her

i have to change this chair now..:-/


but...yesterday.....she came onlINE

no..u'r guessing wrong

she came to see availability nd bookin f rail tickets online.....not for me..<3

so...i was just feelin solitudal

but.....i just did not pinged her....i felt as ,what she'll feel nd think..that..how awkward i am ,to do so..

as,it does not matter to her...but only me

i tried several times..to let go..nd to don't ping her

but.....this body..just is can't resist to talk to my heart...:-/

she seemed to b quite nd solitudal like at that moment...

so ,i asked her...why is she so...low

so..then..she told me..that...its her father's birthday....nd she's just feeling numb nd empty as....she has no one to share with ...

nd i know...girls have special attachment to the fathers

it felt like..real bad inside me...

noor-e-khuda..
yun na hamse nazren chupa


but..i literally can not do any thing for her...at that moment

so...just tried to make her..express nd wish nd talk to her father...for 2 small min.

so..i nd her....made a 2 min. wish moments..for her dad

i wished..just like every time.....with my whole heart

i wished..that ,may god lends her alll the sweetest things ,she want
all the things,she has crush to
may god...gave her a person.who just love like her dad,to her

just tried to tell uncle..how badly she misses him.....
nd just requested him to seek nd preserve her,with all the vitals that she need

karoon kya bhala
tumhi ko to main chahta hoon


uncle,se sorry bola
agar maine mehak ko,kisi baat pe hurt kiya ho to mujhe plz maaf karden

god se bola..ki usse itni himmat den,ki wo is kambhakht duniya se bina dare ....apne sapney jiye

may god.....just ..ease all her ways from which she will go through


nd u know..
it felt ...like really streamlined flow ,in my body
felt relaxed,happy ..

main to itna kho chuka tha wish karne main..ki jab mehak ne ping kiya..tabhi i woke up..from my wishes land

usne kuch khaya bhi nai tha......so usse thodi request ki,taki wo hungary na so jaye...

i just wanted to say to her ,at that moment ki

mehak..how hard it takes..but main hamesha tumhare saath rahoonga....

but i know..she'll never understand this....

u know.....she's THE stolid nd brave person ..i have seen..less in my life...

well,thn wo offline ho gai..lekin it was not a consciousness from her side

wo apne aap hi log out ,ho gai thi ,by mistake..

lekin ,i thought ,ki ....wo offline ho chuki hai

so...i also got offline..

fir ..main jaise hi uska gaana "hum rahen"...sunne ja raha tha ki..

ek unknown no. se sms aya.

as always..i thought..ki fir koi apne naya no. leke.....pareshaan karne wala hai

lekin..she was MEHAK...oh man....

u don't know,ho happy i was...

i just ..went fainted for some moments...stairing on my phone..at her no.

i couldn't believe ki..she texted me

nd..then..i wished her a safe night nd sleep...

and ,fir 5:40 tak...usi smile position main ..bed pe pada raha...

fir..pata ni kab neend ayi......lekin mummy ne fi se utha diya 7 baje

i was like.....first checked her no. in my phone..as if it was all like a dream...!!

then..got relaxed ..after seeing her sms....

huhh....

aaj adhe din ,to main inbox main jaake,uska sms hi padta raha,,baar baar..

aaj ka din bhy ....bahaut busy tha.....
isi liye...apne friends k paas bhi nai ja paya...

as mummy ,fir akeli rah jaati ghar pe...nd unki tabiyat bhi kharab hai thodi

aaj to ultimate wali labou giri kar daali maine..

neeche ka saara saman upar le gaya....nd it was like 60 times ...i stepped up/down from stairs ,with that all stuff

fir..wahan monkey bhi a gaye...

main to hardly...1 inch se bacha tha...nai to wo mere ko kaat leta...:(

acha hua...thoda sa bach gaya...

thanks monkey...:)

baki sab..theek raha...
poore din,sochta raha..ki kuch baaten karoon usse...via textin as callin karke to wo disturb ho jaayegi

but..didn't hav that guts to just send her sms...:(

nd now..my legs r just painin....
my upper side hand is also havin little pain..

but..its ok

atleast i worked good...:)


that's just all for now.....

hey..

P.S....I LOVE U...:)